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Old Jan 23, 2017, 11:11 AM
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Oh my goodness, I so don't know how to deal with this. I reopened my online dating profile last night. And this morning have been sending messages back and forth with this very handsome young man, who happens to be 8 years younger than me. He just said he would like to take me out sometime, and I would love that, but haven't answered yet. I am SO self conscious about my appearance...during the time I had my breakdown and hospitalizations and trying so many different meds, I gained a lot of weight and I don't feel like I used to. I haven't dated or had sexual relations in the past two years since this downward spiral.

I feel so self-conscious that he won't like me. I don't have any misleading pics on my profile or anything but they all are the most flattering pics of me. I'm self-conscious about the weight thing and about the age thing. I mean, he's 8 years younger than me...

I'm also having a hard time because I'm getting closer to 40 and closer to the time where it will be difficult to have kids, and it's not something I MUST do, but I don't know, i would really like the opportunity to have a kid with a man that I love if I want that option. I just all of a sudden, lately, have really felt like the clock is ticking, and loudly.

So how do I respond to this guy asking me out?

Ug!

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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.

Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien

Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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