Oh my! I knew that Librax (something I occasionally use for my stomach) had chlordiazepoxide (Librium) in it, but didn't really think that it was enough to get addicted to. I honestly didn't research how much it had in it, along with clidinium.
Well I find your story quite interesting, and I am sorry that you had to experience that.
As I did with alcohol, I experimented with self-medicating using benzos, but never got hooked on either of them.