Oh wow ... I can't believe i got so many supportive responses. Honestly, thank each and every one of you for answering me. Thank you thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I think the reason everything is hitting so hard is, well first of all, the people i told about my SI weren't my "friends" ... they were older individuals that i had made a "strong" connection with - or so i thought. I don't think it would hurt me as much if it were my friends who were reacting this way. It's just me letting myself be vulnurable i guess.
And as for the thing with my brother ... well, I'm the only one in my family who moved away, and i feel a disconnect from that anyway, but i always just thought it was me being paranoid and longing for a closer-knit family. But this just kind of showed me that they really must forget about me. Not forget as in forget they have a daughter, or sister ... but forget as in, the emotional involvement i guess. Rationally thinking, this isn't a huge deal ... its just the fact that i wasn't important enough for them to share this with. It wasn't because they wanted to spare me any pain - they don't know about any of my pain.
Anyways, i'm side-tracking now.
(((((((((((((((((((((( Petunia, BB, Just, Mouse, Fuzzy, & Nina))))))))))))))))))))


thank you all so so much ...