At 18 I started out on olanzapine for psychosis. It knocked me for six, put on weight, couldn't hold down a job

21 - Took an overdose, was fed up of feeling suffocated by me possessive ex, and depression clung to me all the time.
Put on quetiapine

24 - Cut down my meds on own cause couldn't get it out my head when my parents kept saying something was wrong with me. so I tried to prove ppl wrong. Big mistake. Quetiapine increased. Passed out many times at home, once on sunny day waiting for bus. But I persevered.

26 - Went awol. Found standing above dual carriageway on ledge.
Tried ripseridone - not strong enough, not enough sedative (begged to go back on quet, doc said it wasn't treating illness)
chlozopine -didn't agree with me, nearly died
aripiprazole - never worked
Respiridone again
ECT - Helped alleviate that stubborn fog of depression and melancholia
Back on Quetiapine and added anti - depressants
I added olanzapine at night myself and I feel ok
stopped taking daytime arapiprazole for mood as olanzapine has built up in my system.

I want to say that some anti-psychotics are very strong but sometimes you have to get used to them and its worth it