Honestly. I've had this plan for 2 months. I can't find a single ****ing person who cares. I've tried everything. DONT tell me I haven't tried. Its so hard when you are trying so hard and want help but people aren't giving it to you!!! I even told a professional like idk a ****ing MONTH ago and nothing has happened. Now the plan is ****ing 4 days away and oh well because nobody cares! I mean they tell me they care but they do not mean it. People don't take me seriously because in the past I would feel suicidal and be in crisis and it would last 2-3 days max. This is different. I have felt this way for MONTHS. I have had this plan for MONTHS. Not for impulse/hours! Honestly whatever. No one takes me seriously and Honestly, It took every ounce of me to tell my psychologist about my plan a couple weeks ago. Her response? "Oh I see. You want people to see how horrible you feel" Like WTF. WHAT THE ACTUAL ****. She thinks I'm doing this for attention and sympathy??? I'm doing this "to show people how horrible I feel" ?????? I'm doing this because I ****ing want to die! I'm NOT doing this for a show! I mean whatever, If people ACTUALLY cared, they would've helped me when I told them, a MONTH ago. Now that theres 4 days until the date, I doubt anyone's gonna help me if they didn't earlier. SO **** everyone! (not people on here, just everyone in my life). Help is available to me everywhere, its such easy access for me. Funny how its there, and I even try to USE the help, but it does NOTHING.