@Laurie: Don't get me wrong..I am content most of the time;I don't think about the past until it is in front of me. I know the old adage about grudges and anger and "to forgive is divine" and all that, but in my mind there are some things that don't deserve forgiveness, and there is nothing "divine" about me. I am a mere mortal. Sorry, but in my 51 years, that is what I have learned.