Hey. I don't really know you guys but I'm posting here because I don't know what else to do. Except, what the topic of the forum is here.
I did SI stuff for a few years, years ago, and quit. I've had the feeling here and there since then, but I've avoided it. Within the past year I started counseling and discussed it a few times but never wanted to. I also went back to school (university). I even quit smoking cigarettes a month and 2 days ago! It was a nasty habit I'd picked up out of stress and social situations. I was making excellent progress, if I may say so myself!
I've had a bad week though, and I can't think of anything else to do. It started when my friend (and I really had only this one good friend) and I got into an argument. My mother had surgery last week and I've been helping her. It's time to sign up for next semester's classes and the class my current teacher is teaching is full. I had counseling today and I didn't see it coming but in the middle of discussing family stuff I made a really painful realization. I've also just felt kinda physically blah this past week. I've been trying to talk to my friend, but she just said earlier tonight she needs to take some time. Which means...."don't talk to me."
I don't know what to do anymore. I don't have anyone to talk to, all the progress I'd made seems like it's slipping away. I also feel like I don't have anything to do to cope. SI always helped for the moment. Honestly right now, the moment is all I can deal with.
I hate to do this....hey people that don't know me, please listen to and support me! I know you guys will understand though and keeping my fingers busy prevents me from SI. So, thanks for listening if you've read this far.

Christina