Hi all. I married my husband in March last year. For reasons I look back on now and don't understand I chose to forgive him when he firstly kissed a work colleague and then two weeks after I found out, slept with her. I have had issues in the past with compromising myself like this for fear of what I dont know. I chose to go ahead with the marriage. He has since said my lack of trust last year was unbearable and I also make him feel small yet I have no idea why as he can't give specifics. This led to him telling an old friend he wasn't married (reason he didn't want his ex wife to find out or she would start hassling him) and then going on dating websites. His reason - I wouldn't talk. My perception - I don't recall him trying to talk or once telling me he was miserable and our marriage was making him so unhappy either way it's no reason to do what he did. Least of all the second time was three days after promising he wouldnt do it again. We went to our first therapy session last night and he opened up a lot about his previous hurts but I'm not sure I can go through anymore. I'm suffering with anxiety and low mood and though I'm fighting it it's tiring and I am so angry with him. I'm sorry I've rambled a bit but I'm not sure if these feelings are because subconsciously I want him out. He's now suffering with depression and anxiety which doesn't help my feelings. Any thoughts or advice?
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