<font color="green">[b]Honey I really doubt you were a rotten person then. I think your family had some problems and used your disability as a scapegoat. I can understand being afraid of having to re-open old wounds from past abuse, but you are stronger now and processing that stuff will only help you in the long run. I know it is going to be a painful process but you can do it, I will be here and so will your other friends here at Psych Central.

careful gentle hugs if you want them. [b] </font>