Thanks for the replies guys. And I dont mind talking about it. I do not see a doctor (anymore) and have not been on any medication for more than 6 months. I prefer the holistic mind over matter approach when possible.
I kind of feel like sex is central to my thinking, my conscious thinking that is. Meaning I kind of intentionally make it an issue. I ask myself why I don't want to have sex, or if I don't want "her" why not...."do you want that girl instead?"
I still feel attracted to women but sex seems to be taking the back burner.
Funny thing. The other day I was kind of down. The next day I seriously had at least 3 really good things happen to me. I also went to the gym and was feeling great after that, as usual. Then I went to my gf's house and things changed. I was super sensitive to criticism and I became very angry. She pushed me at one point, semi jokingly, and I pushed her back enough to startle her.
I then felt moderate urges to have sex so I tried that and it was a no go after a few minutes. I was not at all into it. I then snapped at her and yelled at her to get off of me. She left and I have not seen or heard from her since.
It is hard to explain this. I feel good but just not sexual....is that wrong? Maybe I need a new girlfriend after a long hiatus where I learn to appreciate women again and not objectify what they offer. Look at them for their value and not for their sex quality....
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