hi amy...im sarah and 35...i notice i have the same cyclothymia...and its just 2 years i use pills...when i read yours i thought wow she is like me...the difference is i didnt choose any partner for marrige...i behaved same with my ex bfs...and some time they were too eager to marry me but i liked to do sth that they scare me...like show ***** with talk only in scary in action..they scared me and i enjoyed..they all went and i became alone and happy because always think the newer the better...but at end look at me. no hubby no child no job...even i scared my managers...ppl care to keep their job but i didnt and loose all easily in big big companies...tired alone with alot alot experiance.for u amy...back to your ignorant power if u realy want him..do sth special but confuse him...like send him lits of flowers and say sorry..but suddenly get so professiinal picture and send with roses and sorry letter..if he didnt reply..dont continue...just get calm...let u dont loose your peace mind..and if he back...respect to his sensivity and correct your self and try have dont have moody feeling..show your. logic power mind.