For me healing couldnt happen until I left the environment that broke me so bad.

Then I was finally able to do more than just heal but starting with the foundation, rebiold my life (even at the age of 54). The whole last 9 years have been a rebuilding process into a whole new life. Worked hard at letting go of the past & not pickinv at the scabs to keep the wounds open or let them get infected. Its been a real growth process of learning, reprogramming the old neuralpathways that were badly broken.

The new life & new person that has come from this is the greatest feeling. To learn what real emotional connecting with people is after a lifetime of not having it, to learn what love for people feels like & having REAL friendship relationships has been the most fulfilling of all & finally having a life filled with peace instead of battles it the greatest. The last half of life makes up for the first.