That would have been the case with a male doctor, female doctor, a giant carrot cake, or a teletubby. That is the nature of an anxiety disorder, we second guess ourselves where even where it is manifestly and objectively not our fault. A case in point. During a consultation with a MALE doctor in hospital, who was examining my chest, I had a spasm in my leg and my arm shot out to balance myself. I was reaching for the desk/table (nearest surface, and wanted to use that to anchor myself) and at that he had stood up, probably to either move out of the way, and or assist me.

My hand briefly and lightly grazed his leg for a nanosecond. Cue a frantic and near panicked monologue from me that it was an accident, etc etc.

So you see, gender does not matter. Social anxiety (which I suffer from profoundly) means that the displeasing of authority figures, whomever they maybe, is absolutely terrifying for someone like myself. Did I intend to touch the male doctor? No. Was I flirting with him? Nope. Was it an accident, and objectively so, to a trained professional, and probably to a non-medical person? Yes and yes. But even so, my anxiety kicked into overdrive.

Perhaps the doctor change was warranted. But as I said, they have not conducted themselves very professionally, they have not properly explained the reasoning behind this decision and have left in such vague, ambigious terms, and phrased in a way that seemed very discriminatory (all of which are here in the UK clear ethical violations of the fitness to practice requirements of the regulatory body for doctors, the GMC).

The professional standards here in the UK (where I live in, and where these issues have arisen in) clearly state that where a doctor needs to terminate the patient-doctor relationship, they must clearly do so in writing unless, and in exceptional circumstances, it would cause unnecessary and severe harm to the patient and or would pose a risk to the safety of the doctor. Given that the lack of some sort of concrete, objective explanation has in fact magnified the stress I have experienced, and given that I have absolutely no violent tendencies or indeed any sort of anger management/rage issues; it would seem then they have fallen somewhat short of these clearly expressed, solidly required and legally demanded obligations.

And THAT is the cause of my frustration, in that they have not respected my rights as a patient, or their obligations as doctors.