I don't have much of a struggle in life. I've had struggling times, like many, but right now my life seems fairly ok.

I guess I don't understand what this is? Depression? Low motivation? laziness?

Ive been going to college now for many years. Only recently have i made any progress. past two years i have. i was doing school online and was fairly happy. just wished for a change. then got accepted to a school an hour away.

i took 6 classes in one semester at the school online. got burnt out and dropped out of next semesters classes. now this current school, i feel, is too far to commute to. i have trouble getting up early (according to me) to drive an hour and then drive an hour back. by the time i get there i still have to take a 30 min bus ride.

i live in a slightly remote area. so the only option i have is car. which i have one.

but then i think about how much i feel the trouble is to even get out of bed to leave the house. i think about all the errands i need to run or even just 1 place i need to go in town and i dread it.

everything seems like an effort.

i feel absolutely AWFUL feeling this way. i never imagined my life like this and i have such high goals for myself. i also tend to quit things after i start them.