Hey all,

It is admirable that you are able to admit your true feelings. I think I've just bottled mine up inside and carried them, often times, on my sleeves.
I found myself asking God what have I done in life thatbis so horrific that I don't deserve happiness with a mate. I've had a successful career, great children, nice house, nice home, but love? Why must I endure this wonderful milestones alone.
I walked away after 6 years. Thought I had my strength. He controlled what I wore, who I could have as friends, my church affiliations, etc.
So when I walked away I felt empowered. But after a year, he returned and I accepted with open arms because of 'distorted' view of love. 4 months later, dropped like a hot potato. Hahaha - laugh with me because it still hurts.
Now I wonder if the only problem I have really had is the ability to love myself more - & more than I love a man.

I can't see your outer beauty but from your post, I see a beautiful soul who cares. Let's hold one another accountable to ourselves and love us more than what we choose to settle for. Let a man rise up to our ideal of a good man instead of lowering our standards.