What about the times when depression makes you simply put yourself first?

The need to get away from that pain is becomes all encompassing.

I have had a lot of physical pain in my life and I remember thinking that if I had a gun, I would have gladly used it.
For me, the pain of depression is equal, if not greater, than physical pain and I tend to not give a rat's *** about what other's will go through because it's not as great as what I am going through.

Is it selfish? No. And that's only something that those who have felt the same way I do would understand.

If it wasn't for this darned hope that keeps getting in the way...