Thank you so much. It made me cry to read that because I am a good and kind person, but I feel like this depression is a punishment for something I must have done, although I don't know what. I feel that God or some higher being doesn't think I deserve to be happy in love. I get so lonely and I'm so scared of ending up alone. I'm generally good with my own company, but there's a limit and I get so down when I see all my friends getting married and starting their lives with someone and I realise there must be something really wrong with me. I have friends who suffer with depression and their partners/husband/wife doesn't walk out on them, so what makes me so unloveable?? People have said I'm attractive and I've never had a problem attracting people, it's just getting them to stick around. People tell me it's confidence, but I am confident when I first meet people, it's when I'm with them a while that I guess they start to see I'm not confident deep down, but how can people expect me to be confident when all I get is rejection??