Well, I don't really know. I have an appointment with psych 3rd of February. Couldn't be earlier. I won't die until than. I just don't know if my sexual health is because of depression, because of finasteride pills I took or because of long term SSRI use. It is in psyche sure, but which of these? I will try not to quarrel with my psych and, I am not playing a doctors role, I will recommend which AD I would and wouldn't take. SSRI-s are worst for sexual health, there are other medications that are STILL AD-s, and I really would consider atypical one, mirtazapine. It has least sexual side effects and least undesirable side effects. It increases a weight a bit, akathasia (I am used to it) and some other minor sides. In fact if she doesn't know which AD will work, I can recommend with which I would like to start. If I can even say "like". I am not fond of cramming my body with pills. I cut off promazine. It no longer has any effect at any dose. And it skyrocketed my prolactine and my liver is in danger cause of abuse of it. I would rather sleep when I feel sleepy and have messed up circadian rhythm, than use that poison. If midazolam and any (name any, I tried all benzos) can't get me to sleep, and yesterday again, haven't took any pill and fell asleep quite quickly. I think it's just useless to mess with benzos anymore. So healthy step from my point of view is getting mutual treatment agreement, it's sad fact that I know some parts of psychiatry better than she does. It's not like shopping for AD-s, but does she know which AD will work? No. Do I know? No. But I can start with one that feels the safest from side effects view. If I am curing sexual dysfunction, I won't mess it up just again.

I think that's my next healthy step.