Having a dissociative disorder. Most of the time lately I am not here. Honestly I don't think anyone is really much lately
... I used to have reasons to want to be...not anymore...but we can not die..it isn't allowed...tested tried and true many times over the yrs...I won't be alive if I didn't have this ridiculous Disorder...I do not live but body stays alive..because when I can't go on anymore my MI just pulls me in puts me to sleep where I don't know that we are still here and time keeps moving we do not...