So... I'm fed up with just 'existing' and being miserable all the time. For the past two months I've done nothing but cry and make plans to end this crappy existence.

I'm all alone, I've had a falling out with the only local friend I had and even my few online friends and SO aren't any sort of support. Like at all. They just ignore me and hope I go away. Family is useless, too.

I have no psychiatrist, I had to wrap up with my psych after she moved on to another job. I'm currently on the waiting list to see another but he's interstate (I live in a small area) and doesn't take emergencies if they're new patients he hasn't seen yet. Um... I'm seeing a psychologist though, but I feel like I'm getting the "I don't know why you're here" treatment and I'm too poor to afford regular sessions.

I can't go to the hospital despite having a plan because all they do is make me sit alone in the ED surrounded by screaming kids and when I'm finally seen to by mental health, they tell me to meditate. What good is meditation gonna do when I don't want to be alive?

So... I don't know where to go. I'm all alone and desperate for someone to care. Even if it's just a little.