Done with my push in class, now to wait in my little room until kids possibly get sent to me (otherwise I play on the computer). Hey, I gotta do something to keep my mind occupied.

I am thinking about emailing pdoc about my paranoia asking if there is anything we can do about it since it is too early for another dose of my antipsychotic. Or if he thinks my paranoia is more anxiety related. I just don't want him to take it the wrong way and call in an order to have be hospitalized. Maybe I could call, though initiating conversation about it is harder than emailing and having him initiate the conversation next time I see him. I hate feeling vulnerable admitting what I am struggling with to mental health professionals. I feel like it opens up a can of worms. But they probably do need to know, so it's a tough situation.

I dunno, I feel like I should call and schedule an "interim" appointment before my next injection appointment to see if he thinks there is anything else I could do to help myself towards the road of recovery and stabalization. There's only so much he can do. I'm just not sure if I am doing enough. I just want to be "normal."