Not at all. She died in 1983. I was 22. I found out later that the day she found out she was pregnant with me, she hid behind the door of the kitchen and cried. Thank You Dear Aunt So and So. Too late to ask her. Rationally speaking, being poor in the South and having 5 children already, why would she want a 6th? I know she loved me. She had a favorite and my sister next to me and I were not that person so... We were never, ever abused in any way. I could never hate her. I know some moms are dragons.