Warning - this is a heavy one (at least for me). Proceed with cautious.
This is also a venting thread, but those are my feelings, and I want to value them.

I hate successful and happy people.
They create a center of attention, they are "there for you" because they feel like good people (because of their muse of wellness) and don't want that karma title ruined, they succeed in everything they do (or at least broadcast it), they don't talk about personal struggles, just about what they like and hate, or what they say they like or hate. They hate victims and they hate people who give them a bad feeling although doing nothing to them.
I hate being helped without asking for it. It makes me feel horribly inferior. Being scolded for my condition.
And when I want to leave such people, I have a counter-me inside my head telling me "But you'll probably miss all the good things in them".
But the truth in me goes like this: They take a path of self-growth, are unaware of others as much as their own growth. They are not aware of how they make others feel, yet broadcast that they are good to have in life, because who wouldn't want to be around a flourishing flower? They always want to improve to understand, but what about those who feel horrible? Why won't they fight for them, take a path with them? They just want to understand.
"Help me help you", deep down feels like "Help me further learn and grow in my life. Who knows, maybe I'll be able to treat you just as you want, young lad. Just don't treat me badly because that would be a bad thing for you."
Well, it's because of my ego, which wants to do things on its own, without the guidance of egos and agendas. I don't want a lending hand without asking for it. I want a mutual lending of hands.

This writing is messy, sorry for that. But I'm going through horrible thoughts and feelings, I feel distorted, and I blame those who succeed in life, because I feel people like me are victims of the successful in a very indirect way, not victims of themselves as the rest love to portrait because it suits their growth lifestyle.
I can't move on. I see a successful person and I can go thinking "That person has probably mistreated a bullied kid when he was young because he wanted to get along with the popular bullies."
By the way, I sometimes have bad thoughts about psychology and psychiatry because of this. They say the victim is the problem and that the victim needs to deal with his problems, rather than saying the hidden mental bullying is wrong.
Science justifies evil nature by saying "It's human nature, it has science evidences normalizing it, therefore it's ok".