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Originally Posted by justafriend306
Allow yourself the permission to not work right now.
It sounds to me like you are feeling low self-worth for leaving this emloyment? I don't know the circumstances but look at it as you have done yourself a favour, that you were owed this on account of your mental health. Feel no shame, feel no embarrassment.
Depression is setting in and will do so. This comes with feeling to a degree that lack of worth. But you are in fact worth it.
One thing you can do is draw up a list of expectations for yourself. What can become goals? What is reasonable and what is not?
You may have heard I and others discussing CBT (Cognative Behaviour Therapy). Maybe grab a workbook and have a go.
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Okay, so last evening went online and found a forum with comments by employees and ex-employees of this company that terminated me. What I found out was this company frequently terminates people for all the wrong reasons. So I don't feel as bad now (self-worth-wise) as I did. The company does a lot of things wrong such as understaffs and then demands that people do the work of three people, which is impossible. Finding this online forum helped me gain perspective.
I think it may be a characteristic of low self-esteem to take on the full responsibility of a situation...but it is important to fight this urge. Although I am still upset about being terminated my research online uncovered some reasons why it wasn't all my fault.
Some of us really don't have the luxury of just taking time off and not working.
I responded to you in another thread that I was familiar with CBT. However, I am finding DBT to be much more valuable at this time. I have a DBT workbook.
The depression had better not take hold. I have been fighting to get out of and stay out of an 18 to 24 month depression. Yes, the habits of being depressed are still there but I need to fight them. Being depressed is hell on earth. I'm not going back to that hell. Ever.