I just got back from seeing my therapist. She didn't have a lot of suggestions for me, more just making sure I tell the psychiatrist about my feelings when I see him. That feels frustrating, because he doesn't listen very well to either of our thoughts on my depression.

For coping now, my therapist pretty much just suggested trying to find things that make me happy, every day. And we talked about finding some sort of hope or peace through some kind of spirituality, not necessarily religion. I'm not really sure how to go about that, I've never really believed in much of anything. But it's something to explore.

As far as feeling like I'm dying, she said that's the depression causing those thoughts. I still wish I could make them go away though, I don't feel much better today than I did yesterday. But I think talking about it gave me a little hope, at least.