I just started seeing a man about a month ago and I'm always picking him apart. But he's very different than the men I've been with. In the past I've went for hot men that were the starving artist types that didn't treat me well. I would hop into bed right away too. My relationships were based off sex. I didn't value myself for more. I'm physically attracted to him, but it feels so weird to have it not based on sex.

I haven't been with anyone in 9 yrs. I've been self conscious about my body bc I gained weight from a back injury and meds. But he likes me the way I am. He's successful, intelligent and kind. We have a lot of the same beliefs but the ones we don't I pick apart. I'm used to hot men that can't hold a job and are wanna be musicians, writers etc but in the end treat me badly. This man treats me well but it's so foreign to me to not have it intense.

We haven't slept together yet and we both want to wait on that. That feels weird to me too. He's busy we talk at night for a couple of hours every night but we don't text or anything in the day. He doesn't like to text.

This Sunday we might go to his lake place and he'll make dinner and we'll have wine. Depends on his schedule. He has his son on the weekends so I don't see him on the weekends yet.

Any tips on stopping sabotaging this? I almost broke it off with him last night.