I was going to stay home alone, but I'm not feeling safe about that decision. I'm having flashbacks of past Thanksgivings. Thanksgiving is about family and giving thanks, love. My family isn't about any of that.

I talked to my girlfriend last night and I'm going over there. This will be the first time I will do what I want to do, not what they want me to do.

I was in tears already this morning. I see my T later today, so I will be able to work some of this out with him.

I do have to remember I'm not alone.

Thanks.