Yes, right, they are humans and make mistakes. Sometimes I can think this way, others I just cannot. It hurts when the people who suppose to be supportive and loving not doing so in a way we understand. I guess the point I was trying to make is that I'm not happy where I am (partially because of my upbringing; of being unsociable) but I have an easier life. I want to go home and be close to my parents after being out of home for 18 years and I feel guilty about it, but at the same time I'm afraid I won't be happy there because I think they are still difficult to deal with. Then I won't be happy and will have a more difficult and chaotic life. I love them and understand everything they did for me, but they have never made my inner life easy. If I knew I would be happy home, I would go tomorrow without any hesitation. Money, jobs, health care, and freedom can make life easier for sure, but they cannot buy happiness. I would choose happiness and peace of mind over anything else, but I'm not sure if I will ever have these!! Thanks Mr. Skeezyks.