Samj40, there are people here who care--I care. Please hang on. You are not alone though I know it can sure feel that way at times.
If things get really bad, could you try calling a crisis hotline to keep yourself safe?
Can your pdoc help with meds until you can get in to see your new psychiatrist?
Would you be willing to try IP if you needed that to keep safe?
I'm sending thoughts of comfort and peace your way