You know having a partner doesnt always guarantee ypu of the love you are seeking from one.

I grew up in a family that was not physically abusive....wasnt even intentionally emotionally abusive but my dad was incapable of emotionally connecting to anyone & was beyond socially awkward. Had a mom with low self-esteem & struggled to function anywhere outside the house.

Though I fought my environment I thought it was normal blsming their behsvior on lack of education.

Turned around & married a guy I convinced myself was different because he had an education....turned out to be the same....unsble tp ever emotionally connect. I didnt understand what I was really dealing with so fought it the whole 33 years I stayed married & living in the same house.

After leaving & looking back on my whole life & finally moved to a place where I could connect with people, I was able to see that even IF parents & husband felt love they were unable to express it in a way if could be felt by others.

No guarantees by having a partner you will gen those needs met either.

Your caring for yourself & nurturing yourself is really the only guaranteed caring....I looked at it ad an awesome gift from God when i ended up in a loving community