Hi ladies,
This is an incredibly personal post, but I wondered if anyone has gone through a similar struggle and can help. I went through a phase where I made a lot of unwise, impulsive decisions with casual sex, which I used to cope with my insecurity and feelings of inadequacy/loneliness. I did a lot of things that - being the person I am now - I wish i hadn’t, and make me cringe. i didn’t do them because I enjoyed it, but because I had hoped they would bring me relief from depression.

But now, I try to move on in new relationships and my sexual past continues to haunt me. If I am dating someone seriously and they find out about things I did, they tend not to trust me, or treat me differently afterwards. I know no woman should feel ashamed for her sexual decisions, or feel judged for them, but I do, and I can’t stand myself sometimes.