My boyfriend, and i spent every night together after that. I longed for freedom and independence, for friends, for a future with a proper career but here i was at he helm of my demons trapped in the humdrum.
I met with some friends every Friday at a pub, a bit of a dive really but i wasn't close to them and we eventually drifted apart. From then on i spent time with my boyfriends friends but he burned his bridges with them, as they must have been wary of me. I tried to make him keep in touch, as i knew how much i was lost without friends. He had a big family so we spent a lot of time visiting and hanging out with them. It was enough to keep me going.
Meanwhile i was speaking to girls online. Lying that i had a decent job. I read all the time, on a mission,
He had no trouble convincing me that my parents really didn't care about me. So i broke away from them. i was unbearably lonely and i escaped into books, music.
Me with my health problems made the power dynamic in our relationship all wrong. I was dismissed from three jobs, before my trial was up. Then i was offered a job from employer who dismissed me in a different role. I sustained this for four years. I'm grateful for that women to this day. even though she said i was difficult. They wondered why i never went to university like the world was my oyster cause i was young.

I moved in with my boyfriend at 21. We bought a house. I never earned enough to be on the mortgage. And he changed.
We fought all the time. So one day he took a newspaper home with an article about a women abusing her husband and hit my face saying that's you. When he was the controlling one.
I took an overdose, as i needed a way out of this cage that had engulfed me. I tried to get away from him, but my parents used my bedroom for something else and never said i was welcome back well hed turned me against them - coerced me to, i know I'm part of it.

I had no one