Alright, I came upon a realization tonight...as I watched my ex cry last night watching me move on past us, and as I see him tonight moving on...I am starting to realize how he felt last night. I just took pictures down and gave him things back...he's planning trips with friends and going out. Which don't get me wrong, it fabulous because he needs to do that, and I don't act sad about it to him because I don't want to hold him back. I just realize he is moving on too, and I have that fear of being forgotten...I know this is best for him, but I also knew deep down that there had to be a hard part in this...and here it is. I mean, I know why he's planning a trip...1) because WE were supposed to spend that time in Florida with his family, and now he doesn't want to be there without me, and 2) he will be starting his job soon and won't have the luxury of doing things like this. Both understandable and good reasons, but it doesn't stop that pain. I guess things were ok for a while because he wasn't moving on.

I can't think of him being with another girl. I know he told me he couldn't be in another relationship until he works on himself, but it doesn't mean he may not have a meaningless night of sex. Thinking about that bothers me tremendously. I know he needs to do what he's got to do, but it doesn't mean it still doesn't hurt.

I guess I just need to face the fact that whatever happens, happens. And I know he's shy and insecure, so it's not like he's picking up girls where ever he goes. And I know he cares for me...it's just one of those things...it's ok for you not to have him, as long as no one else does :P

I know that's immature, but it's honest. Any advice on how to deal with him moving on? (even though I am too)