Oliver Sacks wrote a book about this called Musicophilia: Tales of Music and the Brain.

I don't have anything like this. I prefer total silence. I was even wearing ear plugs 24/7 when I could but it made the wax build up in my ears so I had to stop.

Once I was meditating and heard a clap of thunder in my brain. It was pretty shocking. I meditated for years and years to see if it would happen again. It didn't.

The Buddhist say if you meditate long enough you will "hear" dakinis (angels) singing. Hindu lore has it if you meditate long enough you will "hear" something called "the silent singer." I have experienced both.

Since my depression started two years ago I find music unbearable. I am the opposite of you. I am waiting for music in my ears. Lennon would be a great start. Or Dylan. I have a large collection of music in my closet, untouched. A guitar, untouched. Depression took music.

I think spending time in nature would be good as a cure. I am sorry to hear of your condition. Try again going into nature. Try. It can't hurt.