Hi Eskielover,I know what you are saying.I know, that is why I avoided marriage,I knew a lot of people in emotionally absent relationships,and saw male on female domestic violence in families growing up,it was in my own family.I couldn't connect to males who were emotionally absent in any way and I couldn't get over my childhood experiences of male aggression,it made me afraid of men.

I know that often being in a relationship can be the most lonely,isolating experience on earth.I am under no illusions that relationship means you always get the love you seek.It is like seeking love through sex,it doesn't get you love,sex.

I guess though even though I know all this I get lonely,crave company and want to feel I will have a loving relationship with someone special before I die.