I have been isolating since losing my job. Tomorrow I have a networking lunch so it will break this emotional stalemate.

I have been pretty overwhelmed for a few years now. My recent campaign to find a counselor has failed, and now with the job loss I dare not even think of paying out-of-pocket for counseling even at a sliding scale fee.

The good thing that happened recently is that one week ago I took suicidal ideation off the table. I was having suicidal thoughts pretty regularly but for a long time didn't tell anyone.

I finally realized I was strong enough to make a commitment to using coping skills over entertaining suicidal thoughts.

This week I kept to my promise and that is about the most positive thing I did all week.