I didn't think about T all last week because I was preoccupied with some new ventures in my life. One involved a man. It's not going to work out, but I was totally focused on that possible relationship instead of my therapy. I emailed T but only to tell her what was happening. My whole session was spent talking about my experience! I had a lot to say!

After my session I felt sad because I think I'm distancing myself from T. I don't want to do that. I still need her especially since the relationship with the guy is over. I was upbeat but now I'm back to normal. It was MY idea to break it off with him which gives me a sense of empowerment. It was a learning experience.

I emailed T that I didn't want her to be less important to me even though that's the goal. I told her I still need her. She emailed back to be curious about the feelings of not thinking about her and moving away, and we will talk about it next week.

I was somewhere today with people and it was hard to not cry. I feel like I'm going through growing pains! I don't want to separate from T. I want our relationship to stay the same but it's happening in spite of what I want. Or it could have been the excitement of a possible male in my life. Yet I'm growing in other ways too. I don't want to grow away from T. Has anyone had this dilemma?