Thank you for the kind words. It means a lot
I don't have any friends close by, iv been a stay at home mother now for close to a year and recently moved 2 hours away from home to live with my parents and am yet to meet anyone. Really hard with a 2 year old and 8 month old.

Iv told him i dont love him anymore, i refuse to wear my rings, i told him to leave but he just caused a scene in front of the children and screamed obscenities at me. I really don't want this to be traumatic for the kids so now I just stay silent.
I was going to run with the kids to the nearest womens shelter, but he suspects im going to run away, so won't allow me to go anywhere alone now. He always jumps in the car or takes and hides the keys.

The problem is, I pride myself on being kind and caring, i hate being angry.. but i can no longer be kind to him. When I bow down to his needs and leave him to do as he pleases, he is nice to me. Wants to kiss and have sex.. i just have to go along with it because otherwise he will just make my days worse than they already are..
I feel sick to my stomach