For those who had asked about my session yesterday: my hand was hurt, but not seriously injured. The other one was injured a few months ago and is still healing, so things like yesterday cause a flare up. It all has to do with abuse memories and dealing with gender and orientation issues that are all tied up in the past and with d id that resulted from it all and that I can't get away from. My therapist had one way to approach things--slower and more cautious--and I had another. She was right. I will admit that now. I've contacted her since then to help stabilize things that are happening because of my condition. She's not angry, but we have to figure out how to do this safely. She said it was a breakthrough though, which I agree. But it's messy and frightening.