thanks, im gonna ask about getting tested for deficiencies.. i just had the thought "hey, i had blood work done not long ago.."

im just tired of feeling like this, its been a life long thing so i just wish that someone could of seen it and fixed it when i was a kid...
that is if it is something like a deficiency... i guess im just trying to rationalize an excuse/ other possibility besides D.I.D./OSDD you know

although i kind of would feel better if it was D.I.D. because thats supposed to be able to get better right? and that would mean i dont have brain damage like im thinking... and i could go to being "normal" some day...

i appreciate the help from everyone, dealing with this stuff alone is really difficult for me...