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Originally Posted by East17
When talking no longer helps... When the only meds you can tolerate don't lift the mood enough anymore...
I feel like I am shutting down. Some days I'm so low and desperate for someone to help me through it - yet I can't bring myself to call a crisis line. It all feels too overwhelming, too much effort to explain, so I don't.
Been in and out of counselling with different counsellors for the past 5 years. Now it's just for maintenance. I'm all talked out.
I finally realised that the only person who can change things in my life, is me. No one else can do it for me. But it doesn't seem worth it anymore.
I accepted a long time ago that one day I would end my life. It is no longer a question of if, but when.
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That, my friend, is a step
forward.
Believe in yourself. It will take time, but you are able to establish a life of your own.
Talking from personal experience - building hobbies such as music, aquariums, exercising... All those things can make you feel better and better, knowing that you accomplish all of those by yourself.
I can tell you that I still have such feelings. But I know them well, so I am not startled by them. Instead, I embrace those feelings.