But I'm not. I'm underemployed, single to the point of thinking a relationship is not an option for me anymore. Isolated by choice. Oh, and broke. I'm currently on medical leave from my job, was supposed to go back at the start of the month and instead ended up in a long ADA dispute with HR. I see my primary care doc (psychiatrists in my town take years to get into) on Monday and I'm afraid he won't support my LTD claim. My therapist who knows me best is only weakly supporting my transfer request (I have no idea if another job will be better but my previous one doesn't deserve me.)

Only I don't cry nonstop and am only vaguely suicidal, i.e. having fantasies of hanging myself in my office symbolically, even though I wouldn't do that. I've never been hospitalized, but I should have been at least once in my life. I've never even got consistent medical care or therapy until about 5 years ago. But I traveled to a well-known hospital and the psychiatrist immediately knew I was undermedicated and had other disorders that are associated with treatment resistant depression.

Work thinks I'm fine.
Therapist seems disappointed I'm not back at work.
Doctor will likely cut me off unless I show up disheveled and crying.

I keep thinking I need more time off, but I'm not even sure. I also think I need to keep pursuing treatments. How does anyone manage this and work full time?

Anyone take LTD? Did they put you through the ringer to get approved?