I often ask myself why do I even try. Every time I start to build some momentum something triggers me and I lose track of what I was doing or what I was going to do. I feel like I live a moment at a time in a weird disjointed story where the main character has no idea what is going on and just tries to roll with it. I would like to move forward but I can't seem to move forward. I'm always side stepping or taking a step back.