I've always written poetry and painted abstract stuff. The writing is more constant, I keep a journal by my chair. Painting comes and goes, lately I haven't painted in months. I've been depressed, or overmedicated. I don't know why. When the painting's on, it's on and I paint super fast, like it's effortless. Then other times I can't motivate. Does it have anything to do with BP? I can't separate myself from the disease anymore so I don't know.