A lot of you know that I had to put my 21 year old cat to sleep in December and that I've been having a hard time with this. I have another cat who is 14 and has had severe pancreatitis twice and gets the occasional, treatable at home, flare every so often. He also was just treated for a big bump on his head. When it was biopsied they couldn't be certain it wasn't cancer but it responded immediately to antibiotics so was considered infection.

This morning he had a mild pancreatitis bout. I medicated him and watched him and he got better except that his eye is weird. He isn't opening it all the way and his third eyelid is up. I read about this and it said give it a couple of days as he probably has had something in the eye. He curled up and purred and slept with me for a while and then left and has been laying in the living room for a couple of hours. He clearly does not feel well. I can't tell for sure but I think the head lump is back although smaller. I'm going to have my mom come see what she thinks in a little bit. If he gets worse we'll have to do emergency vet; if he stays the same he will go to our vet Monday.

Pancreatitis attacks aren't like this. He isn't acting himself at all and I'm scared of what that means. I can't do loss again right now.

I feel so guilty because I've been dogsitting and while I've been here last night was the first in a week that I was here. He was so happy for me to be here. Now he accepts pets but isn't purring or cuddling.

Something isn't right.