Yes, I've told her a couple of times in journal and one time I read it out of my journal. She has pretty much accepted it and talked around it. The time I read it to her.. later in that session she said that she cared a lot about me.

The last time I told her in my journal, there was lots of anger around it, anger about feeling like I couldn't tell her or shouldn't tell her. We haven't talked about that yet.

I have lots of maternal transference with my t. She accepts it and is willing to talk about it if I bring it up as a topic. Mostly we talk about where I think it is coming from than it directly... I don't usually get it figured out until a few weeks after a fantasy that involves the maternal transference.

My love for t used to be much more "pure", "innocent", and over flowing out of me. I didn't think and don't think she is perfect. I do think that love was what one has for the "perfect" parent. Now, the love has shifted some. I've struggled with describing how it is different. I just feels different, "more mature" has been the only way I have come up with describing it.