Hi Hamstergirl,
Good to hear from you, and I agree with Ozzie about the writing. I wrote loads of stuff about my bereavement, but only when I was ready to do it. I'm sure you won't let anyone push you where you don't want to go.
Another thought - from what I understand, medical records are what other people have written down about your case. These records may not be an accurate description of what you were experiencing, because only you know how it felt.
My feeling is that those records won't be the gospel truth, only a set of opinions.
"rotten person?" Well, I don't believe that for one second.
Good thoughts to you, Myzen