Ok those 22 days came and went and still no baby. I still have no purpose in my life and the baby fever only gets worse by the day. I am not verge of throwing my morals out the window and tricking my fiance into having a baby because I can't wait any longer. I want a baby right now and I can't wait I may go crazy waiting. I hate my life and my life needs purpose and meaning and being a mother is the only thing that would give my life purpose and meaning.