You're right, find what inspires you. It may seem cliche but I like pretty things, nature mostly. So I find flowers, trees, sounds of breezes or water over rocks, stars, and it reminds me of the vast awesomeness of our planet and how lucky I am to be alive and aware to experience such incredible beauty. I know, I sound like the plastic bag guy from American Beauty, but its still true. Music is also a huge help for me. Not always the same music, but whatever stokes my mood, then I almost meditate with it and let it fill me up. If you like painting or running, cleaning or cooking, movies and shows, anything really. You are not alone. And you don't have to stay with this feeling. It gets better.