its ok amanda... i appreciate your time, i like being ..objective..? so hearing different view points helps...

i just dont wanna die... i know that probably sounds extreme... but i feel dead already... i haven't been alive for a very long time...

i know i have severe depression and severe anxiety... im gonna try to just go with that.. as long as i dont forget, i tend to forget these things over time... my brain is burnt out or something... 6 years trying to get better just makes me feel like im never gonna get any better... it just keeps getting worse...